Happy New Year's...I guess

Okay, I don't want to ruin New Year's Eve for everyone, so I'm just going to say: Have a great New Year's Eve and an amazing 2007!

Take care everyone,
Bettina

Quizzes Galore...Part One

Hey people,

Well, this is my more upbeat post...finally.
I hope everyone had a good Christmas.
Enjoy these test results, take these tests, let me know about your results, and yeah, I'll try and write about something more relevant next time (or simply at a later time).

Take care,
Bettina

You Are Strawberry Pocky

Your attitude: fresh and sweet Comforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyper You always see both sides to everything

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

You Are Best Described By...

Sleep by Salvador Dali

What Famous Work of Art Are You?

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

You Are a Lemon Margarita

Sour, tangy, and overpowering, you tend to give people a jolt back into reality. While you don't sugar coat things, you're honest - which is actually quite refreshing.

What Flavor Margarita Are You?

Your Pickup Line Is

What's a sexy hottie like you doing in a dirty mind like mine?

The Magical Pick Up Line Generator

Star Wars Horoscope for Cancer

You may whine at times, but you've developed a thick hard shell (like that of a crab). You are strong willed and persistent - until you get what you want. You never shy away from a fight, even when things get dangerous. Mentally sharp, you are starting to master the elements of mind manipulation. Star wars character you are most like: Luke Skywalker

What Is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

A bit of a crisis?

Okay...so I do have something to write about, but I think it is quite stupid, at least part of me does. I just pretty much don't want to be who I am right now. I guess I've reached the point where I want to be wanted in any and every possible way. I want to be desired...probably even lusted after.
The problem with that is, I am not the person others want/desire/lust after. Even my boyfriend has a completely different type of woman he wants...and I get it. It's the same way with almost everybody else, but I have absolutely nothing in common with his fantasy girl...well, other than the being female part. Usually, your partner has at least one attribute in common with your fantasy...
These are the things that at least I think are wrong with me: I am too tall, too heavy, my breasts are too big, my voice is all wrong, my hair is off, and my face in general is just completely wrong. If anything at all, I'm the type of girl you're friends with and you might even consider marrying, but not really one you want.
Sorry, I don't mean to put myself down... I feel especially bad because I promised someone I consider to be very close to me that I wouldn't insult myself, but this just completely overcame me and I don't want something as stupid and silly and vain as this to eat away at me.
So, I would also like to apologize to this close friend of mine for writing this message. You can always lecture me on it later. I'm trying to not insult myself and to not beat myself up, but it's just so damn hard...especially now and I'm not sure why.
Well, I hope everyone is doing okay and I'll try to write a more upbeat message the next time around.

Take care everyone.

Anonymous is not Anonymous anymore

Well, it turns out that I do know the "new" Anonymous. I guess I just wasn't expecting this person to make the comments he/she made. Honestly, I can't believe that I couldn't figure out who it was...
Oh well, this is pretty much all I wanted to write about. I am at a creative low and any attempt at writing something deep and meaningful would just burn and crash. So, I'll just let some music do the talking.

Who are you Anonymous?

You know, I'm usually good with figuring out who my "anonymous" people are, but I'm stumped this time.

So, I'm going to list your comments, and I would really like for you to contact me, outside of this blog, so at least I know who you are.

First: From my post "A little somethin' somethin'" written on Tuesday, November 14th

anonymous said:
"I don't know what to say - I have had moments like this before, but you know it would not be a solution it only would present me with more thoughts of this kind! I know this sounds selfish, but I want to be selfish if it saves you!!!"

My response to this: Why would you be selfish? I think it's really sweet that you're willing to be selfish to save me, but since I can't really figure out who you are, I don't know what to say...it's odd, yet sweet. However, I really appreciate your comment on this! :)

Second: From my post "How dumb am I really?" written on Thursday, November 16th

anonymous said:
"Great! You are smarter than me!"

My response: Huh...I only know one other person who took this... So, I have to wonder... Are you who I think you are? Or are you someone completely different?

Yes, that was very vague of me, but this person must have a reason why he/she listed him/herself as anonymous, so I don't want to state my assumptions on this blog.

So, new person, who are you? Tell me. I don't mind the comments that are listed as anonymous, but I am curious and would like to know if I already know you. If you can't figure out a way to contact me off of this blog, just post another comment in response to this post, but I think that my profile should show you a way to contact me...

Okay, that's all from me for now.

Take care everyone!

Erster deutscher Eintrag

Hallo meine Lieben!

Dies hier wird mein erster deutscher Eintrag auf dieser Blog sein. Manche von euch werden sich sicherlich fragen wieso ich jetzt auf einmal auf deutsch schreibe. Die meisten von euch werden diesen Eintrag aber ueberhaupt nicht oder kaum verstehen koennen. Na ja, ich red' zwar noch ziemlich viel auf deutsch, aber ich kriege nicht besonders viele Gelegenheiten um auf deutsch zu schreiben (ich sollte Oma vielleicht ab und zu mal was schreiben).
Tja...was gibt's denn sonst noch so zu schreiben?
Mensch! Jetzt faellt mir nichts mehr ein! Ein anderes Mal vielleicht...
Also, passt gut auf euch auf!

Bis spaeter

Changes and other mundane things

Ohayoo minasan,

I hope everyone is doing okay! I'm not quite sure how I'm doing, but I think that my medication is making me slightly nauseous...probably because I haven't been taking it regularly...*cough, cough*... Don't worry, I'm working on it.

First off, important announcement: My dear family and friends, let me know what you want for Christmas! You might not get it right on Christmas, but you will get it during that timeframe (unless something goes horribly wrong)!!!!

Secondly, as you can probably tell (well, maybe not...) I have changed a few things on this baby.

1) The color: I was getting sick of that shade of pink and even though I don't like like this color too much either, it still looks more "me" than the pink did. I'm also pretty sure that most of you will appreciate the change in color as well. I like pink, but not all shades of it and even then only in moderation.

2) I added on a picture...not much else to say about that.

3) Links: I switched some of them around...most of them to be more precise...and then I added on a new link. Trifthen is now my first link because...well, I visit his site the most often (even if he thinks that like only one person ever reads his posts...and I doubt that he was talking about me!). The new link is the fourth one on the list, which is listed as Metal Angel. This link leads to the LiveJournal of the author of Indecent, Sarah Katherine Lewis.

4) Christmas list: Yes, I posted one (underneath the Links section). Several people have asked me what I want and this is a list of things that I...well, want. I know that the list is long, but that's because I wanted to give everyone a whole bunch of things to choose from. Of course, I listed the items from the ones I would like to have the most to the ones that can wait, but that doesn't mean that I'm expecting to get the items at the top of the list (with the exception of the first item listed - the letter).

5) Who's hot list: I posted a list of who I think are the most attractive people in the world (underneath the Blog Archive section). They are listed in alphabetic order because I haven't been able to come up with a satisfying order yet. It also doesn't show all of the people that I put on the list because it is longer than my Christmas list. In the near future, hopefully as soon as finals are over, I will do my best to dedicate a post to each of the people on this, with pictures and/or video clips. So, even if I don't end up showing the whole list, you'll know who's on it either way.

I think that's all I have to say about blog changes...

So, I guess it's on to the other mundane stuff!

Tonight CBS will be showing the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show at 10/9c, which I fully intend on watching...and umm...taping...

Oh no...hahaha...I completely forgot what else I wanted to write about...*sigh* That's just depressing...

Okay people, I had a good run at this, but I'm way out of steam (didn't know I had any to run on to begin with...), sooo, I'll write something else later.

Since I'm currently in such a poppy mood, musically, I thought I'd share this with you:



Take care people *mwah*

An Indecent Review (don't read if you can't deal with anything remotely sexual)

Have you ever wondered what really goes on behind the closed doors of a strip club? Those sort of hidden and somewhat shady-appearing "massage parlors" or "tanning salons"?
Have you ever wondered what kind of a woman would choose to work in the adult entertainment industry?
If you have, then Indecent is *the* book for you. If you haven't...well, I would still say that this book is worth skimming through at least. Who knows, maybe you'll even find it worth actually reading... ;)
Written by a former sex worker (even though last I checked she was still working in the adult entertainment industry), Sarah Katherine Lewis gives her readers a rather sobering image of what actually goes on in this industry. I'm not going to say that the book was all good. There were some areas of the book that went by rather slowly, other areas were not as fleshed out as I would have liked them to be, and at some parts it just felt like she did not like anyone other than her colleagues. However, as life usually goes, not all is as it seems and I found out that Sarah Katherine Lewis is an unbelievably kind and sincere human being.
Her writing might seem harsh or vulgar to some at times, but overall, she reminds you of one of your friends. (At least that was the case with me.) She even manages to bring quite a bit of humor to an industry that seems to be unbelievably serious and in some areas more than just plain disgusting.
Another area of note is the way this autobiography is divided up. You do not only see the standard chapters, but also subchapters. Both the chapters and subchapters have their own unique titles, such as Holy Hand Jobs and Pussy Sweatshop as chapter titles, and various song titles as the subchapter titles.
One of the things I liked the most about Indecent, other than the book in general, was how Sarah K. Lewis described her journey from being an adult entertainment "virgin" to becoming a kind of jack...or jill of all trades in the sex industry.
Her use of vivid descriptions helps the reader step inside the world and mind of a sex worker...regardless of whether it is Ms. Lewis talking about her on-the-job "training" at a "tanning salon", her customers somehow being mysteriously and maybe even subconsciously drawn to each other's bodily fluids, her feelings about a special breed of customers she calls "relaters", how even doctors can become completely ignorant jerkwads once most or all of their blood manages to flow to their other head, or even her mentioning something as seemingly common as body image issues off and on throughout the book.
Overall, this book is a great read. You do not even have to be obsessed with sex, as I obviously seem to be to, to be able to somewhat like this book. Some of you might be disgusted with a few parts of this book, but I'm sure that if you take a look at each of your lives up until now, you should be more than able to find something that others might find remotely disgusting. Yes, life can also be highly disgusting at times...get used to it.
The way I see this book is that it is more a peek at a woman's journey in one of the most controversial and toughest industries that the free world has to offer. I can also pretty much guarantee that after you have read this book, you will most likely be ever so slightly grateful for the job you have, even though once you boil sex work down to its basic components, you will be hard-pressed to find any major differences (if any at all) between sex work and any other type of job in the service sector.
Well, that is it for me. Please let me know how you like Indecent should any of you decide to read it.

Thanks everyone! Hope you liked my review.
Love you all and thank you Sarah for responding to my message! I can't tell you how happy I was to read it!

Hugs and kisses