Well, I'm too lazy to post something more extensive, but I would still like to share a video. It's from the British girl group Girls Aloud, who have released quite a few cover and power pop songs (well, around 4 albums worth). I like them and their sound in general. In addition to that, they all happen to be quite attractive.
So, have fun with it, dance, sing, jump...pretty much whatever floats your boat.
Oh, and...take care people.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Monday, April 09, 2007
Shameless Plugs and 100th Post (yay!)
Well, I have two sites for everyone to visit. If you check my Links section, you will see one listed as Fulltang. Click on this and it will lead you to the Livejournal of one of my dear friends. Just read his posts and show hime your love. Maybe he'll update more often if more than one or two people read and comment on his posts.
The second site was set up by one of my closest and dearest friends. Again, check the Links section, click on Trifthen's Webfiction (it's listed directly underneath the link listed as Trifthen), and read his entries. He has been superbusy writing chapter outlines and typing up these entries. Yet again, show him your love by reading these entries and sending him comments on his main site. So far, I like what I've been reading and no, this is not me "buttering him up".
As you can see in the title, this is also my 100th post, which really isn't that impressive, considering how long I've had this blog. I'm still happy about it though.
Well, I guess I'm done for today. I'll try and update soon. As soon as I possibly can, at least.
Take care mina san!
The second site was set up by one of my closest and dearest friends. Again, check the Links section, click on Trifthen's Webfiction (it's listed directly underneath the link listed as Trifthen), and read his entries. He has been superbusy writing chapter outlines and typing up these entries. Yet again, show him your love by reading these entries and sending him comments on his main site. So far, I like what I've been reading and no, this is not me "buttering him up".
As you can see in the title, this is also my 100th post, which really isn't that impressive, considering how long I've had this blog. I'm still happy about it though.
Well, I guess I'm done for today. I'll try and update soon. As soon as I possibly can, at least.
Take care mina san!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
300
Well, I said I would post more about 300, so this is exactly what I'm doing now. This is such a pretty movie, even with the violent nature of this movie. It's funny because yes, the movie is violent, but the violence isn't overpowering. 99% of this movie is filled with men, which I'm perfectly fine with. I mean, this movie does deal with Spartans, so that means loads of testosterone. Of course, there were women in the movie, but most of them were extras. This made it relatively easy for Lena Headey to stand out as the only main female in 300. Not that she has any problems standing out in a crowd of females... Lena Headey played the beautiful and strong Spartan Queen Gorgo, in case "the only main female" wasn't a dead giveaway. I am always surprised with Lena Headey because she almost always looks kind of tough and edgy at conventions and other public appearances, but she's always so soft and feminine onscreen (she never loses her toughness though).
This sort of leads into my next point: the love scene between King Leonidas and Queen Gorgo. It was quite interesting to watch, especially because the audience either started giggling, talking about something completely unrelated, or everyone just shut up. I had read somewhere that this love scene was described as "Skinamax", which for those of you who don't know, Skinamax is a reference to the softcore porn movies shown on the Cinemax channels. I don't know how true that is since I've only seen one of those movies and I was listening to two gay guys pretty much discuss and question the appeal of heterosexual sex. So...yeah. Anyway, with how male-centric this movie was overall, I thought it was quite fascinating that the love scene was female-centric. You barely saw anything of King Leonidas and that Queen Gorgo was quite clearly enjoying herself. I don't know if this was on purpose or what was going on, but I just thought I'd point it out.
Now onto Xerxes... He is tall!!! (Yes, I realize that the actor isn't actually that tall, but I can still be impressed.) Okay, while I was watching 300, I kept on thinking "You know who would make good-looking Spartan? Rodrigo Santoro." Then I found out he played Xerxes! What?! That was a surprise... Rodrigo Santoro can play the really sweet good guy and the hot bad guy, but I was surprised that I couldn't recognize him. I don't know why I was because he was covered in chains, gold paint and make-up, he was bald and they decided to record another voice over his.
Another person who stood out was David Wenham, who played Dilios. Dilios was pretty much the narrator and was also the guy, who had his eye covered up with cloth. I never would have guessed that David could bulk up the way he did for this movie because he just didn't seem like that kind of a person. In addition to that, he was already attractive without showing off so much of his body. There's not much else that I could say about him. He's just amazing. I love his voice, his face, and his overall personality.
The last person I would like to talk about is my favorite actor and someone I consider to be one of the most attractive people ever. Gerard Butler was, in my opinion, the perfect choice for King Leonidas. He has a very strong voice and presence, and he doesn't lack any emotions. I've been a fan of Gerard's for about 5 or 6 years now and he never ceases to amaze me. I was kind of expecting his career to take off after "The Phantom of the Opera", which didn't really happen, so maybe he will gain the success he deserves after this.
So, 300 is definitely worth watching, at least once. And...if there's anything I've missed, or anything you would like my opinion on (yeah right), just let me know.
That's all from me for today. I am now off to enjoy my first day of spring break, or at least I will attempt to. I also can't wait for 300 to be released on DVD. Yes, I'm a horrible person.
Okay, I'm done. Let's hope that this won't be my last post.
Take care people
This sort of leads into my next point: the love scene between King Leonidas and Queen Gorgo. It was quite interesting to watch, especially because the audience either started giggling, talking about something completely unrelated, or everyone just shut up. I had read somewhere that this love scene was described as "Skinamax", which for those of you who don't know, Skinamax is a reference to the softcore porn movies shown on the Cinemax channels. I don't know how true that is since I've only seen one of those movies and I was listening to two gay guys pretty much discuss and question the appeal of heterosexual sex. So...yeah. Anyway, with how male-centric this movie was overall, I thought it was quite fascinating that the love scene was female-centric. You barely saw anything of King Leonidas and that Queen Gorgo was quite clearly enjoying herself. I don't know if this was on purpose or what was going on, but I just thought I'd point it out.
Now onto Xerxes... He is tall!!! (Yes, I realize that the actor isn't actually that tall, but I can still be impressed.) Okay, while I was watching 300, I kept on thinking "You know who would make good-looking Spartan? Rodrigo Santoro." Then I found out he played Xerxes! What?! That was a surprise... Rodrigo Santoro can play the really sweet good guy and the hot bad guy, but I was surprised that I couldn't recognize him. I don't know why I was because he was covered in chains, gold paint and make-up, he was bald and they decided to record another voice over his.
Another person who stood out was David Wenham, who played Dilios. Dilios was pretty much the narrator and was also the guy, who had his eye covered up with cloth. I never would have guessed that David could bulk up the way he did for this movie because he just didn't seem like that kind of a person. In addition to that, he was already attractive without showing off so much of his body. There's not much else that I could say about him. He's just amazing. I love his voice, his face, and his overall personality.
The last person I would like to talk about is my favorite actor and someone I consider to be one of the most attractive people ever. Gerard Butler was, in my opinion, the perfect choice for King Leonidas. He has a very strong voice and presence, and he doesn't lack any emotions. I've been a fan of Gerard's for about 5 or 6 years now and he never ceases to amaze me. I was kind of expecting his career to take off after "The Phantom of the Opera", which didn't really happen, so maybe he will gain the success he deserves after this.
So, 300 is definitely worth watching, at least once. And...if there's anything I've missed, or anything you would like my opinion on (yeah right), just let me know.
That's all from me for today. I am now off to enjoy my first day of spring break, or at least I will attempt to. I also can't wait for 300 to be released on DVD. Yes, I'm a horrible person.
Okay, I'm done. Let's hope that this won't be my last post.
Take care people
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Alive...barely
Well, I'm going to keep this short, sweet, and simple...maybe. All you need to know is that I'm still alive (kind of), and I am doing my best to keep my world intact.
I went to the midnight showing of 300 on Friday morning. 300 is such a pretty movie...
I won't be writing much about it in this post, but I will say that I adore Lena Headey, David Wenham, and Gerard Butler. They are great actors and seem like people you could just hang out and be friends with.
Okay, that's all from me.
Take care
I went to the midnight showing of 300 on Friday morning. 300 is such a pretty movie...
I won't be writing much about it in this post, but I will say that I adore Lena Headey, David Wenham, and Gerard Butler. They are great actors and seem like people you could just hang out and be friends with.
Okay, that's all from me.
Take care
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Happy Valentine's/ National Condom/ Single Awareness Day
Yes people, pick your day. We have Valentine's Day for the romantically-inclined couples among you; Single Awareness Day for the mildly depressed, lonely and longing, or the independent; and of course my pick and personal favorite: National Condom Day (whoo!).
Well, that's all I really have to about (insert your day).
UIUC actually showed that they had some common sense and not only cancelled all of their classes yesterday, but also all of today's classes, which made me quite happy. Of course, one of my room mates/friends still drove to work yesterday and ended up getting stuck on his way back, which was quite annoying because he got stuck unbelievably close to home.
So, my boyfriend, this friend, and I wandered through what could be called snow deserts to try to free his car from the snow and get it home safely, but alas, no such luck. There were about 6 other cars stuck in the same area and we wouldn't have been able to get the car very far anyway. I almost sprained my ankle at least a few dozen times on the way there and back, which almost caused me to just lay on the snow and call it a day, but I'm not the type of person to give up and in. Unfortunately, I thought my body was going to completely shut down on me after we got back last night, I might get a cold (I had quite the cough last night and my voice is still raspy), and my ankles and calves are making me pay for last night. Oh well, this is a small price to pay if it means that I can be of at least some help to the people I hold near and dear to my heart.
The good news is: He managed to get his car back today and it is now parked safely in the carport.
I do regret though that I forgot to take pictures of the mess outside, but there's not much I can do about that now.
Hmm, what else is there to write...
We had quite the relaxing day today. We watched the unrated extended director's cut of "The Grudge" along with a track produced by the guy, who I guess produced the Mystery Science Theater 3000 show. However, that track was recorded for the theater version of "The Grudge", so we ended up getting commentary that didn't make much or any sense at certain spots of the movie. Then we got food and attempted to get the car out of the snow, but in the end, a tow truck had to get the car out.
Anyway, I need to finish up, so I can get my school stuff ready, read another chapter from "Monkey", and relax while watching "The Grudge 2". Didn't I say that I was sick and insane? Who knows if I'll even make it to the movie-watching part...
Talk to everyone later.
Well, that's all I really have to about (insert your day).
UIUC actually showed that they had some common sense and not only cancelled all of their classes yesterday, but also all of today's classes, which made me quite happy. Of course, one of my room mates/friends still drove to work yesterday and ended up getting stuck on his way back, which was quite annoying because he got stuck unbelievably close to home.
So, my boyfriend, this friend, and I wandered through what could be called snow deserts to try to free his car from the snow and get it home safely, but alas, no such luck. There were about 6 other cars stuck in the same area and we wouldn't have been able to get the car very far anyway. I almost sprained my ankle at least a few dozen times on the way there and back, which almost caused me to just lay on the snow and call it a day, but I'm not the type of person to give up and in. Unfortunately, I thought my body was going to completely shut down on me after we got back last night, I might get a cold (I had quite the cough last night and my voice is still raspy), and my ankles and calves are making me pay for last night. Oh well, this is a small price to pay if it means that I can be of at least some help to the people I hold near and dear to my heart.
The good news is: He managed to get his car back today and it is now parked safely in the carport.
I do regret though that I forgot to take pictures of the mess outside, but there's not much I can do about that now.
Hmm, what else is there to write...
We had quite the relaxing day today. We watched the unrated extended director's cut of "The Grudge" along with a track produced by the guy, who I guess produced the Mystery Science Theater 3000 show. However, that track was recorded for the theater version of "The Grudge", so we ended up getting commentary that didn't make much or any sense at certain spots of the movie. Then we got food and attempted to get the car out of the snow, but in the end, a tow truck had to get the car out.
Anyway, I need to finish up, so I can get my school stuff ready, read another chapter from "Monkey", and relax while watching "The Grudge 2". Didn't I say that I was sick and insane? Who knows if I'll even make it to the movie-watching part...
Talk to everyone later.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Should I be stupid or play it safe?
Okay, for those of you who aren't sitting in this: Throughout pretty much all of Illinois, among other places, we are now under a blizzard warning and even though this doesn't seem to be the main focus, part of this area is also under a tornado warning (check weather.gov). All I can say is: Please don't. Don't hit us with both. I know life isn't fair, but this is plain bullshit (sorry).
Also, the University of Illinois (at Urbana-Champaign) still hasn't cancelled classes, which means that I technically need to go to school in the next 20 minutes. Here's the thing, I live about 30 minutes away from the part of town I need to get to and my car isn't made to drive in this weather. Weather.gov already says "do not travel" and that if you have to travel, you should take a winter survival kit with you. I don't really have that either.
I've already had one professor cancel class, but another stated that we would be having class unless the University cancelled all classes.
Excuse me, have you checked the weather outside?
The thing is, it's not really the snow that's the issue, but the strong winds that keep on blowing the snow around.
Oh well, I'll check and see if I need to go babysit today, and if I do, I might as well attempt to go to the one class I have today, but I don't know... Wow, I think my mind just went blank.
No, you know what? I'm not going to class. If you have courthouses, public libraries, and all of your schools closed, I am not going to my class. The only way I'm going to school today is if they actually come to pick me up and take me back home after that.
I'm insane, but I'm not stupid. This isn't supposed to be an insult to everybody who has to be out on the roads. If anything, I'm highly annoyed at UIUC.
So, while the snow continues to fall and pile up and the winds continue to blow, I will sit here, force myself to eat and drink something, take my meds, do at least some of my homework, read, and watch TV and movies. And who knows, I just might get some cross-stitching and crocheting done.
Since I have begun typing this post, I checked weather.gov again, only to find out that what was listed as a tornado warning was actually the blizzard warning. Stop confusing people, okay weather.gov?!
Well, to end this post, I would like to give you something entertaining to watch. And yes, I am a sick sick person...
Also, the University of Illinois (at Urbana-Champaign) still hasn't cancelled classes, which means that I technically need to go to school in the next 20 minutes. Here's the thing, I live about 30 minutes away from the part of town I need to get to and my car isn't made to drive in this weather. Weather.gov already says "do not travel" and that if you have to travel, you should take a winter survival kit with you. I don't really have that either.
I've already had one professor cancel class, but another stated that we would be having class unless the University cancelled all classes.
Excuse me, have you checked the weather outside?
The thing is, it's not really the snow that's the issue, but the strong winds that keep on blowing the snow around.
Oh well, I'll check and see if I need to go babysit today, and if I do, I might as well attempt to go to the one class I have today, but I don't know... Wow, I think my mind just went blank.
No, you know what? I'm not going to class. If you have courthouses, public libraries, and all of your schools closed, I am not going to my class. The only way I'm going to school today is if they actually come to pick me up and take me back home after that.
I'm insane, but I'm not stupid. This isn't supposed to be an insult to everybody who has to be out on the roads. If anything, I'm highly annoyed at UIUC.
So, while the snow continues to fall and pile up and the winds continue to blow, I will sit here, force myself to eat and drink something, take my meds, do at least some of my homework, read, and watch TV and movies. And who knows, I just might get some cross-stitching and crocheting done.
Since I have begun typing this post, I checked weather.gov again, only to find out that what was listed as a tornado warning was actually the blizzard warning. Stop confusing people, okay weather.gov?!
Well, to end this post, I would like to give you something entertaining to watch. And yes, I am a sick sick person...
Saturday, February 10, 2007
This week's score: Bettina: 1...Death: 0
Yes! I have managed to survive yet another week.
Sooo, let's see what I have to report...
Monday went over pretty normal. Tuesday did quite a number on me because I thought I knew where I had put my meds, but I just couldn't find them until after I had managed to make it home relatively safely and slightly shaking. Damn anxiety disorder... All I have to say is: NO MORE SNOW! Note that I am writing this after having checked weather.gov and finding out that there is a forecast for even more snow early next week. Ummm...Wednesday I was 15 minutes late for my Japanese class, which really got to me because I had a chapter quiz that day. Oddly enough, I still managed to be the first to finish the quiz. Nothing much happened yesterday...wait...oh yeah, I nearly killed myself yesterday! On campus, several of the buildings have very smooth steps, which become dangerously slippery with only a few drops of water on them (okay, it takes a bit more than a few drops...). Anyway, I managed to nearly break my neck walking down one of them and almost bust my knee open walking up another set of those stairs. Then I nearly sprained my ankle because I am completely incapable of walking...on grounds covered with unevenly pressed-down snow. Well, as for today, I woke up with a sore arm, which was caused by me sleeping on the tube of my sleep mask. Unfortunately, I also woke up ten minutes later than usual, but oh well... What else... I had my first midterm exam (Japanese) today, which is kind of early in the semester, but since I have two midterm exams for Japanese, I guess it works.
Well, I think that pretty much covers my week. I am also quite happy to be watching "Dirt" again. "Dirt" is a show with Courtney Cox Arquette that deals with the world of gossip and tabloids and well...dirt. It's actually pretty good. It has interesting characters, storylines, and like FX's other series "Nip/Tuck", it manages to push the boundaries of what "regular" television has to offer. In addition to that, it reintroduces us to Paul Reubens, who has a recurring role as the main character's former mentor.
Huh...I think I'm done. For now at least...
Talk to you later,
Bettina
Sooo, let's see what I have to report...
Monday went over pretty normal. Tuesday did quite a number on me because I thought I knew where I had put my meds, but I just couldn't find them until after I had managed to make it home relatively safely and slightly shaking. Damn anxiety disorder... All I have to say is: NO MORE SNOW! Note that I am writing this after having checked weather.gov and finding out that there is a forecast for even more snow early next week. Ummm...Wednesday I was 15 minutes late for my Japanese class, which really got to me because I had a chapter quiz that day. Oddly enough, I still managed to be the first to finish the quiz. Nothing much happened yesterday...wait...oh yeah, I nearly killed myself yesterday! On campus, several of the buildings have very smooth steps, which become dangerously slippery with only a few drops of water on them (okay, it takes a bit more than a few drops...). Anyway, I managed to nearly break my neck walking down one of them and almost bust my knee open walking up another set of those stairs. Then I nearly sprained my ankle because I am completely incapable of walking...on grounds covered with unevenly pressed-down snow. Well, as for today, I woke up with a sore arm, which was caused by me sleeping on the tube of my sleep mask. Unfortunately, I also woke up ten minutes later than usual, but oh well... What else... I had my first midterm exam (Japanese) today, which is kind of early in the semester, but since I have two midterm exams for Japanese, I guess it works.
Well, I think that pretty much covers my week. I am also quite happy to be watching "Dirt" again. "Dirt" is a show with Courtney Cox Arquette that deals with the world of gossip and tabloids and well...dirt. It's actually pretty good. It has interesting characters, storylines, and like FX's other series "Nip/Tuck", it manages to push the boundaries of what "regular" television has to offer. In addition to that, it reintroduces us to Paul Reubens, who has a recurring role as the main character's former mentor.
Huh...I think I'm done. For now at least...
Talk to you later,
Bettina
Saturday, February 03, 2007
This should explain quite a bit...
Yes, I am being quite lazy with this, but I really liked these quizzes and I'm curious about who would get what result. So, look over these, read my comments on each result, take these quizzes and let me know about your results. Have fun!
I don't think that I'm a sloppy drunk. I pay way too much attention to my friggin' image to let myself become a sloppy drunk. I might be a clumsy drunk, but so far I've only been drunk once. Usually I just get pretty buzzed. And about the clumsy part: Well, considering that I'm already quite the klutz, alcohol doesn't really make that a whole lot more prominent. As for the drugs...I take medicine and dietary supplements, those are the only drugs I take. Other than that, I am very much against drugs. However, it's true, I don't think that I could ever pass up a glass of absinthe... So, yay! I'm absinthe!
I'm not too surprised with this result. Even though it seems like I'm revealing superpersonal information on this blog, I'm not really. Most of my posts are quite superficial. Yes, I am a dark and mysterious soul. That's nothing new though...
Okay, I have already written this one down in my calendar. I am going to rule Saturn one of these days. The dark and mysterious soul from Pluto is going to move to Saturn. I'll become the dictator, queen, or empress...or something...
It's true, I'm not easy to befriend. I'm painfully shy and I suffer from a slight case of social anxiety...then there's always the fact that I don't really trust...well, anyone (with a few exceptions). I've been stabbed in the back a few times, so I've learned to hide in my shell and stick my claws out whenever I first meet somebody new. This doesn't work all the time, but it works often enough for now. Slow thinking... Umm...duh. That's the way I am, I think slowly but deeply. I do think more quickly than most people might imagine, but I usually have to check my thoughts three or four times before I can do anything. So, considering all of the work that my brain goes through, I can think pretty damn fast.
Anyway, that's that, I guess. I am absinthe...I am actually from Pluto...and I should rule Saturn. Well, I guess I'll work on becoming the ruler of Saturn then. I'm looking forward to it!
Later people,
Bettina
You Are Absinthe |
 You are a sloppy drunk, purposely so If drinking doesn't make you feel crazy, it's not any fun Truth be told, you tend to prefer drugs to drinking But you'd never pass up any absinthe that came your way! |
I don't think that I'm a sloppy drunk. I pay way too much attention to my friggin' image to let myself become a sloppy drunk. I might be a clumsy drunk, but so far I've only been drunk once. Usually I just get pretty buzzed. And about the clumsy part: Well, considering that I'm already quite the klutz, alcohol doesn't really make that a whole lot more prominent. As for the drugs...I take medicine and dietary supplements, those are the only drugs I take. Other than that, I am very much against drugs. However, it's true, I don't think that I could ever pass up a glass of absinthe... So, yay! I'm absinthe!
You Are From Pluto |
 You are a dark, mysterious soul, full of magic and the secrets of the universe. You can get the scoop on anything, but you keep your own secrets locked in your heart. You love change and you use it to your advantage, whether by choice or chance. You don't like to compromise, to the point of being self-destructive with your stubborness. Live life with love, and your deep powers will open the world to you. |
I'm not too surprised with this result. Even though it seems like I'm revealing superpersonal information on this blog, I'm not really. Most of my posts are quite superficial. Yes, I am a dark and mysterious soul. That's nothing new though...
You Should Rule Saturn |
 Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye. You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature. And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance. You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life. You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past. |
Okay, I have already written this one down in my calendar. I am going to rule Saturn one of these days. The dark and mysterious soul from Pluto is going to move to Saturn. I'll become the dictator, queen, or empress...or something...
It's true, I'm not easy to befriend. I'm painfully shy and I suffer from a slight case of social anxiety...then there's always the fact that I don't really trust...well, anyone (with a few exceptions). I've been stabbed in the back a few times, so I've learned to hide in my shell and stick my claws out whenever I first meet somebody new. This doesn't work all the time, but it works often enough for now. Slow thinking... Umm...duh. That's the way I am, I think slowly but deeply. I do think more quickly than most people might imagine, but I usually have to check my thoughts three or four times before I can do anything. So, considering all of the work that my brain goes through, I can think pretty damn fast.
Anyway, that's that, I guess. I am absinthe...I am actually from Pluto...and I should rule Saturn. Well, I guess I'll work on becoming the ruler of Saturn then. I'm looking forward to it!
Later people,
Bettina
Monday, January 29, 2007
Poll (Part One)
Hey everybody,
As some of you might remember (most or all of you probably won't though), I had been planning on setting up a list of the most attractive people in the world. Well, I ended up with a long list of names, but now I can't put them in any kind of order. To help me do this, so I can at least attempt to introduce various types of beauty to...well, everyone reading this blog, I would like for you to send me a list of the names of people you consider to be the most attractive.
This way, I hope that my list will become even more diverse and interesting.
Male, female, athletes, scientists, authors, actors/actresses, models, French, American, African, Russian, etc. It doesn't matter. Just send me some info or links to websites pertaining to these people and I will be able to (hopefully) bring some order to my list, expand it, and put it up on this blog.
I am not setting up a deadline for this yet because I want to see if anyone will respond to this first.
If you don't know how to get ahold of me, you can either include the list as a comment to this post (I would only suggest this if your list is really really short) or if you are part of the Myspace universe, you can always send me a message that way (check my Links section...it should be listed as "Bettina on Myspace"), or if you know my email address, you can always send it there.
Ummm...I think that's all I needed to say. I hope to hear from at least some of you soon.
Have a good night everyone,
Bettina
As some of you might remember (most or all of you probably won't though), I had been planning on setting up a list of the most attractive people in the world. Well, I ended up with a long list of names, but now I can't put them in any kind of order. To help me do this, so I can at least attempt to introduce various types of beauty to...well, everyone reading this blog, I would like for you to send me a list of the names of people you consider to be the most attractive.
This way, I hope that my list will become even more diverse and interesting.
Male, female, athletes, scientists, authors, actors/actresses, models, French, American, African, Russian, etc. It doesn't matter. Just send me some info or links to websites pertaining to these people and I will be able to (hopefully) bring some order to my list, expand it, and put it up on this blog.
I am not setting up a deadline for this yet because I want to see if anyone will respond to this first.
If you don't know how to get ahold of me, you can either include the list as a comment to this post (I would only suggest this if your list is really really short) or if you are part of the Myspace universe, you can always send me a message that way (check my Links section...it should be listed as "Bettina on Myspace"), or if you know my email address, you can always send it there.
Ummm...I think that's all I needed to say. I hope to hear from at least some of you soon.
Have a good night everyone,
Bettina
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Blogging For Choice
You know, I was going to wait until the weekend to type up my next post because I've just been too tired during the week, but then I saw that today is "Blogging for Choice" day...and well, what can I say...I just couldn't resist.
If you're curious how I found out about this, check Cipherpunk's Livejournal (http://cipherpunk.livejournal.com/154795.html) and Trifthen's site(http://bonesmoses.org/view.php?id=186).
(Note: The addresses are set up this way because the "insert link" command didn't work the way it was supposed to, and I need to go to bed, so I'm not going to look into it any further tonight.)
Pro-choice and pro-life...I really don't like either of those terms. So, what could I possibly write about reproductive "issues"? I'm afraid that my parents won't be overly happy about at least a few things I will be writing about in this post, but I can't please everyone. Especially not when I'm writing about such a controversial topic.
First of all, if I have to label myself, I am pro-choice. Why? Well, there are a few reasons, but I guess the main one is that abortion can be traced back all the way to Ancient Egypt (if not even further back than that) and that there will always be women who will go through with abortion... Shut up, I'm not quite done yet. Now, if a woman really wants to go through with an abortion she will do so...in whatever way possible. This can result in more death and infection than necessary. So, I would rather have abortion legalized and regulated, and have the women be healthy and safe. Or at the very least, healthier and safer.
I have already been labeled as a "cold-hearted bitch" by my younger siblings because I am pro-choice, but this is one of the few times when I couldn't care less about what people think about me.
I know that my boyfriend and my dad are both against abortion, but they also belong to the group of people who think that guys should stay out of it because it's the woman who carries the child...and not the man (unless we're actually seahorses and I haven't received the memo for that yet).
My dad is also the kind of guy, who would marry the girl he happens to impregnate. How do I know this? History, people...history. It's happened before. Before my dad met my mom, he impregnated a young woman and, feeling it was the proper or honorable thing to do, he proposed to her and they got married. She gave birth to my older half-sister in 1979 (if I am not mistaken) and everything seemed to be okay. Unfortunately, nothing is ever as it seems...it's not like we live in some pussy version of a Grimm fairy tale...and she ran away, with child and her boyfriend. So, where did she run off to? California, of course, so she could squeeze as much money as possible out of my dad. My dad, in the sometimes sickening goodness of his heart, offered to adopt and take care of this girl...his child, but I guess that the money was far more appealing. Therefore, I know I have an older half-sister and I've seen at least one picture of her, but I've never met her.
Okay, I'm getting kind of off topic here, sorry.
Back to reproductive rights...
Of course, I am not for people running around having unprotected sex with whomever they please, women getting pregnant as a result of this, and then having multiple abortions within any given year. That's beyond stupid and reckless. That's why I think that you should also go to counseling or therapy to determine if an abortion is the right path to take...unless there are life-threatening circumstances involved.
Another issue in the reproductive rights universe is that some men don't want to provide for their future children. Well, being a female (physically at least...it's pretty evenly divided neurologically I think), I would tell that man to go ahead and leave. I don't need someone like that around me and my child. Seriously, I would rather be alone and working my butt off than have someone tell me what to do with my body or have a bitter man let out his anger at an innocent being. In this case, I would demote the "father" to "tool", and proudly claim that I conceived the child all by myself. If you don't believe that I would do such a thing, you obviously don't know me.
The same thing applies if I happen to get pregnant and I want an abortion. If my partner wants to force me to have a child I'm not ready for...out. I know that I'm making this sound far easier than it would be, but some things just have to be done.
As for whose choice this would actually be...first and foremost it should the woman's, but if you're in a relationship, you should have an in-depth conversation with your partner about this.
Last thoughts: Religion and government don't mix. Last time I checked we aren't in a theocracy. If we are, I would like to move...to Saturn...or Pluto. Stop bombing abortion clinics and killing those doctors because that is just plain cowardice. Stop acting like little brats about this and similarly controversial issues. And...stop the whole "abstinence only" BS because that certainly isn't helping to decrease abortion rates, or teenage sex and/or pregnancy for that matter.
That's all.
If you're curious how I found out about this, check Cipherpunk's Livejournal (http://cipherpunk.livejournal.com/154795.html) and Trifthen's site(http://bonesmoses.org/view.php?id=186).
(Note: The addresses are set up this way because the "insert link" command didn't work the way it was supposed to, and I need to go to bed, so I'm not going to look into it any further tonight.)
Pro-choice and pro-life...I really don't like either of those terms. So, what could I possibly write about reproductive "issues"? I'm afraid that my parents won't be overly happy about at least a few things I will be writing about in this post, but I can't please everyone. Especially not when I'm writing about such a controversial topic.
First of all, if I have to label myself, I am pro-choice. Why? Well, there are a few reasons, but I guess the main one is that abortion can be traced back all the way to Ancient Egypt (if not even further back than that) and that there will always be women who will go through with abortion... Shut up, I'm not quite done yet. Now, if a woman really wants to go through with an abortion she will do so...in whatever way possible. This can result in more death and infection than necessary. So, I would rather have abortion legalized and regulated, and have the women be healthy and safe. Or at the very least, healthier and safer.
I have already been labeled as a "cold-hearted bitch" by my younger siblings because I am pro-choice, but this is one of the few times when I couldn't care less about what people think about me.
I know that my boyfriend and my dad are both against abortion, but they also belong to the group of people who think that guys should stay out of it because it's the woman who carries the child...and not the man (unless we're actually seahorses and I haven't received the memo for that yet).
My dad is also the kind of guy, who would marry the girl he happens to impregnate. How do I know this? History, people...history. It's happened before. Before my dad met my mom, he impregnated a young woman and, feeling it was the proper or honorable thing to do, he proposed to her and they got married. She gave birth to my older half-sister in 1979 (if I am not mistaken) and everything seemed to be okay. Unfortunately, nothing is ever as it seems...it's not like we live in some pussy version of a Grimm fairy tale...and she ran away, with child and her boyfriend. So, where did she run off to? California, of course, so she could squeeze as much money as possible out of my dad. My dad, in the sometimes sickening goodness of his heart, offered to adopt and take care of this girl...his child, but I guess that the money was far more appealing. Therefore, I know I have an older half-sister and I've seen at least one picture of her, but I've never met her.
Okay, I'm getting kind of off topic here, sorry.
Back to reproductive rights...
Of course, I am not for people running around having unprotected sex with whomever they please, women getting pregnant as a result of this, and then having multiple abortions within any given year. That's beyond stupid and reckless. That's why I think that you should also go to counseling or therapy to determine if an abortion is the right path to take...unless there are life-threatening circumstances involved.
Another issue in the reproductive rights universe is that some men don't want to provide for their future children. Well, being a female (physically at least...it's pretty evenly divided neurologically I think), I would tell that man to go ahead and leave. I don't need someone like that around me and my child. Seriously, I would rather be alone and working my butt off than have someone tell me what to do with my body or have a bitter man let out his anger at an innocent being. In this case, I would demote the "father" to "tool", and proudly claim that I conceived the child all by myself. If you don't believe that I would do such a thing, you obviously don't know me.
The same thing applies if I happen to get pregnant and I want an abortion. If my partner wants to force me to have a child I'm not ready for...out. I know that I'm making this sound far easier than it would be, but some things just have to be done.
As for whose choice this would actually be...first and foremost it should the woman's, but if you're in a relationship, you should have an in-depth conversation with your partner about this.
Last thoughts: Religion and government don't mix. Last time I checked we aren't in a theocracy. If we are, I would like to move...to Saturn...or Pluto. Stop bombing abortion clinics and killing those doctors because that is just plain cowardice. Stop acting like little brats about this and similarly controversial issues. And...stop the whole "abstinence only" BS because that certainly isn't helping to decrease abortion rates, or teenage sex and/or pregnancy for that matter.
That's all.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
"I need to find breasts that fit", Spring Semester '07, Hormones, and other such things
Okay, this might get kind of long, so bear with me and comment if you can and want.
The first part of this post pertains to that lovely quote in the post title. That is something I said yesterday. Now, some of you might be wondering "Hmmm...now why would Bettina say something like that?" Well, that's because I didn't mean to say that. What I had ACTUALLY meant to say was "I need to find a bra that fits..."
Unfortunately, that didn't quite work out... The reason why I had attempted to say that was the fact that the underwire of one of my bras had managed to give me a few bruises, which aggravates me slightly. I USED to have a DD cup size, but for the past few months (as in the past 12 months), I have been noticing that my cups are running over, which doesn't look as hot as it might sound. It sure as hell doesn't feel as hot...
So yeah, I need a bigger bra...but I haven't quite figured out which cup size yet. I think it might be an E or some other insane size.
As some as you might have noticed the spring semester has started recently, and after having been sore, confused, and completely exhausted (even with sleep therapy) for all of the school week, I am proud to say that I survived the first week just fine. I have a load of pretty interesting classes this semester: Elementary Japanese 2, Masterpieces of East Asian Literature, Intro to Language Science, and Abnormal Psychology. Some of you might be wondering, why I am not in a higher Japanese course, especially since I have been studying Japanese since I've been 15 years old (I did have several lengthier breaks during the past 6 years though, but I should probably still be further along), but I didn't do as well as I had hoped last semester, so I thought it would be wise to take two steps back. Sometimes you have to step back in order to leap forward, and that is the path I have chosen.
The second course listed should also be interesting because we are going over literature in China, Korea, and Japan. The first book we will be going over is "Monkey" by Wu Ch'eng-en, which some might recognize as the story that inspired the anime series Dragon Ball. So, that should be somewhat fun to read.
As for Intro to Language Science, I am taking that course because I used to want to major in Linguistics, but as the universe should have it, I changed to Japanese and have been sticking to it like a leech ever since. Who knows...I just might minor in Linguistics...(it depends on how masochistic I feel after this semester though)
Last, but not least, Abnormal Psychology should be unbelievably fascinating all by itself, but that's not the only reason I'm taking it. I want to set Psychology up as a second major, but they require me to take several courses at UIUC first.
Now onto to my favorite topic: Hormones
If you guessed sex...fine, you're right...don't worry hormones either end up at the topic of sex or at least pass it. In my case, hormones lead to the topic of sex, so no worries people.
I love hormones, even if mine are slightly off, but sometimes they can be a real pain. Over the years, I have noticed something interesting...there are certain times, when more men (in this case) take notice of you than you would like and women (again in this case) tend to look at you like they want to rip your throat out. Well, it's that time of the month for me again...ovulation. Older men, in this case they are creepy as well, hit on me and I can tell that they are undressing me with their eyes... Younger men look me up and down and/or look kind of confused... As for the women, well, some act just fine towards me, but the others can be unbelievably hostile towards me.
Now, if that were the only issue...I'd still be annoyed about it, I admit it. There's nothing that could take away from that feeling, unless I actually felt that I was attractive enough to warrant such behavior.
However, my sex drive is also so high that I feel like locking myself up in a box and putting myself in the basement, so I'm less of a danger to others and myself. Okay...it's probably not THAT bad, but it's pretty damn close. Right now I am in serious need of testosterone...or sex...or both. So, all I can do is take a few dozen cold showers, press up against all the walls in the house, and toss and turn and toss and turn...and hope that it doesn't get so bad that I start to have guys I would never consider smelling, let alone touching (some of you know who I am talking about), appear in my dreams and fantasies. I'm not too worried though because, so far, that has never happened.
Oh well, that's all the news from my disturbing universe.
Here's a final thing I have to share: Quiz results...yay!
Please note how I have 25% in each of the first three categories, but 0% in the last three. It's really weird because I've never been to prison and I don't have any direct contact with people who have been/are in prison...but I was born and spent the first nine years of my life in the South and my father is a Texan. I'm happy with it though. It would have been nice to get something in the "Aussie" category, now that I think about it...
Talk to you guys later.
The first part of this post pertains to that lovely quote in the post title. That is something I said yesterday. Now, some of you might be wondering "Hmmm...now why would Bettina say something like that?" Well, that's because I didn't mean to say that. What I had ACTUALLY meant to say was "I need to find a bra that fits..."
Unfortunately, that didn't quite work out... The reason why I had attempted to say that was the fact that the underwire of one of my bras had managed to give me a few bruises, which aggravates me slightly. I USED to have a DD cup size, but for the past few months (as in the past 12 months), I have been noticing that my cups are running over, which doesn't look as hot as it might sound. It sure as hell doesn't feel as hot...
So yeah, I need a bigger bra...but I haven't quite figured out which cup size yet. I think it might be an E or some other insane size.
As some as you might have noticed the spring semester has started recently, and after having been sore, confused, and completely exhausted (even with sleep therapy) for all of the school week, I am proud to say that I survived the first week just fine. I have a load of pretty interesting classes this semester: Elementary Japanese 2, Masterpieces of East Asian Literature, Intro to Language Science, and Abnormal Psychology. Some of you might be wondering, why I am not in a higher Japanese course, especially since I have been studying Japanese since I've been 15 years old (I did have several lengthier breaks during the past 6 years though, but I should probably still be further along), but I didn't do as well as I had hoped last semester, so I thought it would be wise to take two steps back. Sometimes you have to step back in order to leap forward, and that is the path I have chosen.
The second course listed should also be interesting because we are going over literature in China, Korea, and Japan. The first book we will be going over is "Monkey" by Wu Ch'eng-en, which some might recognize as the story that inspired the anime series Dragon Ball. So, that should be somewhat fun to read.
As for Intro to Language Science, I am taking that course because I used to want to major in Linguistics, but as the universe should have it, I changed to Japanese and have been sticking to it like a leech ever since. Who knows...I just might minor in Linguistics...(it depends on how masochistic I feel after this semester though)
Last, but not least, Abnormal Psychology should be unbelievably fascinating all by itself, but that's not the only reason I'm taking it. I want to set Psychology up as a second major, but they require me to take several courses at UIUC first.
Now onto to my favorite topic: Hormones
If you guessed sex...fine, you're right...don't worry hormones either end up at the topic of sex or at least pass it. In my case, hormones lead to the topic of sex, so no worries people.
I love hormones, even if mine are slightly off, but sometimes they can be a real pain. Over the years, I have noticed something interesting...there are certain times, when more men (in this case) take notice of you than you would like and women (again in this case) tend to look at you like they want to rip your throat out. Well, it's that time of the month for me again...ovulation. Older men, in this case they are creepy as well, hit on me and I can tell that they are undressing me with their eyes... Younger men look me up and down and/or look kind of confused... As for the women, well, some act just fine towards me, but the others can be unbelievably hostile towards me.
Now, if that were the only issue...I'd still be annoyed about it, I admit it. There's nothing that could take away from that feeling, unless I actually felt that I was attractive enough to warrant such behavior.
However, my sex drive is also so high that I feel like locking myself up in a box and putting myself in the basement, so I'm less of a danger to others and myself. Okay...it's probably not THAT bad, but it's pretty damn close. Right now I am in serious need of testosterone...or sex...or both. So, all I can do is take a few dozen cold showers, press up against all the walls in the house, and toss and turn and toss and turn...and hope that it doesn't get so bad that I start to have guys I would never consider smelling, let alone touching (some of you know who I am talking about), appear in my dreams and fantasies. I'm not too worried though because, so far, that has never happened.
Oh well, that's all the news from my disturbing universe.
Here's a final thing I have to share: Quiz results...yay!
Your Slanguage Profile |
 British Slang: 25% Canadian Slang: 25% Prison Slang: 25% Aussie Slang: 0% New England Slang: 0% Southern Slang: 0% |
Please note how I have 25% in each of the first three categories, but 0% in the last three. It's really weird because I've never been to prison and I don't have any direct contact with people who have been/are in prison...but I was born and spent the first nine years of my life in the South and my father is a Texan. I'm happy with it though. It would have been nice to get something in the "Aussie" category, now that I think about it...
Talk to you guys later.
Friday, January 19, 2007
Fun, fun, fun quizzes
You Should Stay in Shape with Swimming |
 You require something that's both serene and challenging. Swimming is the perfect way for you to do your own thing and escape for a while. Swimming will give you that perfectly toned, curvy body you desire. |
I should really look into going swimming...
You are a Brainy Girl! |
 Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books. You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more. For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests. A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either! |
That's pretty much all I have going for me...I don't know.
You are Bettie Page |
 Girl next door with a wild streak You're a famous beauty - with unique look And the people like you are cultish about it |
Huh, I think we've had this one before. I like Bettie Page.
You Have Many Alpha Tendencies |
 You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way. You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix. |
Okay, where do you get your information? Part of it is true. I am not a complete alpha female. Why? Because I try to stay out of the deeper realms of the feminine. I've been there, done that, bought the T-shirt...you all know how the saying goes. It wasn't fun or pretty. I'm proud to say that I've developed into quite the androgynous person.
You Should Wear Black Lipstick |
 Confident, dramatic, and unexpected. Your look: Gothic beauty Your signature lip gloss flavor: Ginger |
Umm...I would never wear black lipstick. That would only look decent on me if I had a darker complexion.
You Are Most Like Adriana Lima |
 Intriguing and sultry |
Yeah...right. If only I was half as hot as her...
Okay, I'm done...again. Take the quizzes, have fun with them, and let me know what you got, okay? This of course also goes for the rest of the quizzes I have taken and posted.
Take care and I'll write about more later on.
Lots of love,
Bettina
Monday, January 15, 2007
Somebody is really mad...
...and for once it's not me. I just read a comment from my mother, even though she wrote it as Anonymous. She is mad at me for stating that life doesn't hold much appeal to me anymore.
Since it is too late to call her, I guess I'll let a few things out on my blog since it's going to have to be let out somewhere...
Let me tell you something, my dear mother, if things went according to you, I would just shut up or lie about my feelings.
Guess what, I'll be damned if I start to lie about my feelings and thoughts again. You know, Mom, be glad that you only suffer from situational depression. At least you know that it will eventually pass. I'm stuck with therapy and medication. Who knows...I might get lucky and the depression will get better with the sleep therapy, Synthroid and Paxil, but for now, I am stuck in this dark hole. I am stuck in a war I didn't ask to be in and so far, I have been on my own. I tried going down the road of shutting up and guess what...I screwed myself over even more.
You want to know why you are paying for my education! Here's why: There is a part of me, hidden away in a safe and dark room in my mind, that believes that things will eventually get better. A part of me does still believe that once I've fought my way through this time in my life, I will feel better.
So, if you could get off it and try to understand what I might be going through (like I have been doing with you), then you wouldn't be getting upset at a sentence in one of my posts. It was one sentence, for crying out loud! You know, if you get mad at me, then I have to get at least twice as mad at myself for getting you mad. I'm sure you have better things to get mad at anyway...
So, now that I have gotten mad as well, I think I'm going to have to stand outside in the cold for a little bit.
Since it is too late to call her, I guess I'll let a few things out on my blog since it's going to have to be let out somewhere...
Let me tell you something, my dear mother, if things went according to you, I would just shut up or lie about my feelings.
Guess what, I'll be damned if I start to lie about my feelings and thoughts again. You know, Mom, be glad that you only suffer from situational depression. At least you know that it will eventually pass. I'm stuck with therapy and medication. Who knows...I might get lucky and the depression will get better with the sleep therapy, Synthroid and Paxil, but for now, I am stuck in this dark hole. I am stuck in a war I didn't ask to be in and so far, I have been on my own. I tried going down the road of shutting up and guess what...I screwed myself over even more.
You want to know why you are paying for my education! Here's why: There is a part of me, hidden away in a safe and dark room in my mind, that believes that things will eventually get better. A part of me does still believe that once I've fought my way through this time in my life, I will feel better.
So, if you could get off it and try to understand what I might be going through (like I have been doing with you), then you wouldn't be getting upset at a sentence in one of my posts. It was one sentence, for crying out loud! You know, if you get mad at me, then I have to get at least twice as mad at myself for getting you mad. I'm sure you have better things to get mad at anyway...
So, now that I have gotten mad as well, I think I'm going to have to stand outside in the cold for a little bit.
I need to write
Well, I told myself that I should post something, but the question is what...
On my Myspace blog, the last three posts have been about Lindsay Lohan's stupidity. In case you have a life, which I believe that most of you should have, you will not have heard about this. I think it might have been a week ago, but Miss Lohan had to have emergency surgery on her appendix because of recurring pain in that area and her being diagnosed with appendicitis.
Now you would think that she would rest for some time after surgery, but no, she had to go off and party a mere eight hours after this surgical procedure. Eight hours! She has got to be completely meschugge!
In addition to that, she was supposedly also diagnosed with a liver infection. Now, how would she have a liver infection? That's because Tinseltown lets her babies run around wild and drink whenever and whatever they want. Unfortunately, I'm not overly surprised by this because she also smokes, even though she has asthma, and hasn't been that healthy of a person to begin with.
I just decided that writing about Lindsay Lohan might get some people talking and I just wanted to express my disappointment about her stupidity and recklessness.
I guess I just wanted to shove her out there as an example of how not to be.
Anyway, I'm pretty sure I didn't want to write about Miss Lohan again...
Spring semester starts on Tuesday. Whoo!
I have to work hard this semester... No worries though, I'm looking forward to working hard.
We were supposed to have an ice storm here, but no, just loads of rain. I love rain! Unfortunately, it's a bit too cold to run out there without shoes or socks on.
I also managed to run into my favorite type of man today. The creepy type. I went grocery shopping and he just walked by the aisle with one of his friends and said "How are you doing?". Now, if this were a Joey-type of guy, it would have been funny and kind of cute, but it wasn't...so it was just creepy. Usually, I would have looked disgusted and scared and looked away, but something just came over me. I just stared him in the face and smirked. As soon as they walked away and I left the aisle, this is what went through my head: "What the HELL was THAT?!?!" I then had a small anxiety attack that he would follow me and think that I actually like him. Luckily for me...for once...I only saw him two more times after that (and he only actually saw me once out of those two times) and then I was GONE.
So yeah, interesting evening. This is why I like to do the pursuing a lot of times because if I end up with a complete jerk and creep...well, then it's my fault. At least I can tell myself that then...
I already told my Schatzi about it and he could only tell me "Good job" and I am going to have to agree with him on that one. Letting someone who could hurt you see your weak side might not be the way to go, but I don't think that smirking is the answer either.
Different topic: I am thinking of writing stories and poems and stuff like that. I would like to know if anyone would be interested in me doing that. If nobody responds to this, I will still write stories and poems and whatnot, but if I am going to post them on my blog, I would like for people to want to read them and give me feedback and so on. I know...it sounds really stupid of me to ask because it's my blog, so I should care less about the opinions of others, but I'm just not that kind of a person.
Okay, I'm done. This post probably doesn't make any sense.
Take care everyone...talk to you later.
Bettina
On my Myspace blog, the last three posts have been about Lindsay Lohan's stupidity. In case you have a life, which I believe that most of you should have, you will not have heard about this. I think it might have been a week ago, but Miss Lohan had to have emergency surgery on her appendix because of recurring pain in that area and her being diagnosed with appendicitis.
Now you would think that she would rest for some time after surgery, but no, she had to go off and party a mere eight hours after this surgical procedure. Eight hours! She has got to be completely meschugge!
In addition to that, she was supposedly also diagnosed with a liver infection. Now, how would she have a liver infection? That's because Tinseltown lets her babies run around wild and drink whenever and whatever they want. Unfortunately, I'm not overly surprised by this because she also smokes, even though she has asthma, and hasn't been that healthy of a person to begin with.
I just decided that writing about Lindsay Lohan might get some people talking and I just wanted to express my disappointment about her stupidity and recklessness.
I guess I just wanted to shove her out there as an example of how not to be.
Anyway, I'm pretty sure I didn't want to write about Miss Lohan again...
Spring semester starts on Tuesday. Whoo!
I have to work hard this semester... No worries though, I'm looking forward to working hard.
We were supposed to have an ice storm here, but no, just loads of rain. I love rain! Unfortunately, it's a bit too cold to run out there without shoes or socks on.
I also managed to run into my favorite type of man today. The creepy type. I went grocery shopping and he just walked by the aisle with one of his friends and said "How are you doing?". Now, if this were a Joey-type of guy, it would have been funny and kind of cute, but it wasn't...so it was just creepy. Usually, I would have looked disgusted and scared and looked away, but something just came over me. I just stared him in the face and smirked. As soon as they walked away and I left the aisle, this is what went through my head: "What the HELL was THAT?!?!" I then had a small anxiety attack that he would follow me and think that I actually like him. Luckily for me...for once...I only saw him two more times after that (and he only actually saw me once out of those two times) and then I was GONE.
So yeah, interesting evening. This is why I like to do the pursuing a lot of times because if I end up with a complete jerk and creep...well, then it's my fault. At least I can tell myself that then...
I already told my Schatzi about it and he could only tell me "Good job" and I am going to have to agree with him on that one. Letting someone who could hurt you see your weak side might not be the way to go, but I don't think that smirking is the answer either.
Different topic: I am thinking of writing stories and poems and stuff like that. I would like to know if anyone would be interested in me doing that. If nobody responds to this, I will still write stories and poems and whatnot, but if I am going to post them on my blog, I would like for people to want to read them and give me feedback and so on. I know...it sounds really stupid of me to ask because it's my blog, so I should care less about the opinions of others, but I'm just not that kind of a person.
Okay, I'm done. This post probably doesn't make any sense.
Take care everyone...talk to you later.
Bettina
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Shake ya moneymaker, like somebody 'bout to pay ya
So yeah, confusing title, but it's a line from Ludacris's song "Moneymaker", which I had the immense pleasure of listening to this morning. I just don't know which moneymaker Ludacris was talking about yet...
I also got to brave the cold world in shorts and a T-shirt this morning, mainly because of a semi-emergency. It actually felt pretty good...
So, what else has been going on? I have been slowly withdrawing myself from others because I don't want to be a bother. Most of my friends have their own lives and they don't need someone like me to throw myself at them. If this sounds like I'm depressed, sorry, but I don't feel overly depressed. I'm just saying. I just don't feel like pushing people I love away from me by smothering them in every way imaginable. It also seems that most people could do without my love, so now I'm just trying to figure a few things out. This is mainly an observation.
On a slightly different note, the spring semester starts on Tuesday and even though I had told one of my friends that I would visit him before the end of the break, I started thinking about it and not only am I lacking in the money department, I also don't want to overdo it and get on his nerves. He has told me that this is not the case several times already, but I also know that every person has his/her limits. It is mainly a money issue though.
Huh...that wasn't on as different of a note as I had originally intended it to be.
Some other observations: My body hurts a lot more when I sleep without my mask. I am starting to get fed up with my "special" room mate again. Life just doesn't have much appeal to me anymore. I used to think that getting married would be so significant in my life, but I'm beginning to think that I could very well do without it. On the other hand, I still want to have children.
Hmm, I guess that's it from me...for now at least.
Take care everyone,
Bettina
I also got to brave the cold world in shorts and a T-shirt this morning, mainly because of a semi-emergency. It actually felt pretty good...
So, what else has been going on? I have been slowly withdrawing myself from others because I don't want to be a bother. Most of my friends have their own lives and they don't need someone like me to throw myself at them. If this sounds like I'm depressed, sorry, but I don't feel overly depressed. I'm just saying. I just don't feel like pushing people I love away from me by smothering them in every way imaginable. It also seems that most people could do without my love, so now I'm just trying to figure a few things out. This is mainly an observation.
On a slightly different note, the spring semester starts on Tuesday and even though I had told one of my friends that I would visit him before the end of the break, I started thinking about it and not only am I lacking in the money department, I also don't want to overdo it and get on his nerves. He has told me that this is not the case several times already, but I also know that every person has his/her limits. It is mainly a money issue though.
Huh...that wasn't on as different of a note as I had originally intended it to be.
Some other observations: My body hurts a lot more when I sleep without my mask. I am starting to get fed up with my "special" room mate again. Life just doesn't have much appeal to me anymore. I used to think that getting married would be so significant in my life, but I'm beginning to think that I could very well do without it. On the other hand, I still want to have children.
Hmm, I guess that's it from me...for now at least.
Take care everyone,
Bettina
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Quiz Smorgasbord
Your Pimp Name Is... |
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Yep, that is how I am to be addressed from now on: Brown Sugar Mystery...hahaha
Hey, there's nothing wrong with being a pimp...
You Are Bud Light |
 You're not fussy when it comes to beer. If someone hands it to you, you'll drink it. In fact, you don't understand beer snobbery at all. It all tastes the same once you're drunk! You're an enthusiastic drinker, and you can often be found at your neighborhood bar. You're pretty good at holding your liquor too - you've had lots of experience. |
The thing with this is, well, I actually am not an overly fussy drinker. I am a bit fussy when it comes to beer however...so I guess I am a bit of a beer snob. About me being an enthusiastic drinker: I can be (and somewhere my mother's heart just got a bit heavier), but it depends on the situation and I do most of my drinking at home. Unfortunately, (or depending on your attitude towards this, fortunately) I am pretty good at holding my liqour. It might have to do with my Hungarian, German, and Irish blood...it could have to do with me being taller and heavier than the average person...I honestly don't know because I know people who do far more drinking than I do and still can't hold their liquor as well as I can. I do have to say this, don't aim to be good at holding your liquor, okay?
Your Birthdate: July 6 |
 For you, love is a natural progression from friendship. You are almost always friends first. In love, you are loyal, steady, and honest. You are not a cheater or even much of a flirt. You are likely to stay friends with your ex... and open to rekindling something in the future. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 6th, 15th, and 24th of the month. |
My opinions on this: Love is almost always a few steps after friendship. I could never be with someone romantically who isn't also my friend. Even though I am not a cheater (this goes against my code of ethics), I do tend to be quite the little flirt. I don't know how I ended up being a flirt, but I somehow just slip into it. However, if I notice that someone is uncomfortable with it and I have realized that I have been flirting, I will do my best to tone my behavior down. I don't know what to say about the number of true loves and broken hearts. Oh well, what can you do?
You Will Die at Age 55 |
 Not bad, considering your super wild lifestyle Want to live longer? Try losing a few bad habits. |
Huh, 55... I won't die early because of my "superwild" lifestyle, but more because of my self-destructive lifestyle, thank you very much. Who knows...I guess I'll die when I die.
You Are 30 Years Old |
 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
Wow...that old already? That's like 9 years older than I already am. I need to hurry up. The success they're talking about happened between the ages of 5 and 8. I really don't know if I want more... But yay, 30!!
Okay, I hope everyone has fun with these surveys and let me know what you got on these.
Take care and I'll talk to you later
Monday, January 08, 2007
Response to last post's comment
Okay, I don't know how that comment was meant. It could be that you just really didn't know what to say and you felt obliged to comment either way, but you might have also been sarcastic about it...in which case, I could very well do without comments like that. Trust me, I am unbelievably sarcastic and cynical, but there is a time and place for that and that post is the wrong thing to respond sarcastically to.
2006 was just an odd year...not just for me. If it were just me, I could shrug it off and say "Ah well, it's just me. I'm probably just being a bitch about it."
However, hearing how the year went for most of the people I know, I do know that it wasn't just me. This year was just weird all around.
So yeah, my brain is slightly scrambled right now. If I sound slightly stupid in this post, I apologize.
I guess I'll sign off then.
Take care peeps and I'll talk to you later,
Bettina
2006 was just an odd year...not just for me. If it were just me, I could shrug it off and say "Ah well, it's just me. I'm probably just being a bitch about it."
However, hearing how the year went for most of the people I know, I do know that it wasn't just me. This year was just weird all around.
So yeah, my brain is slightly scrambled right now. If I sound slightly stupid in this post, I apologize.
I guess I'll sign off then.
Take care peeps and I'll talk to you later,
Bettina
Thursday, January 04, 2007
My Thoughts On 2006 And Confessions
For those faint of heart...and Mom: Please cover your ears (well, close your eyes...whichever keeps you from reading this post is fine with me).
Ears covered? Eyes shut?.............Good.
So, how was my 2006? Well, let me try to summarize it...
Imagine being raped in every way possible while being tied up with rusty barbed wire. That's pretty much the way 2006 went for me.
I don't think that I've ever been as exhausted, depressed, or in as much pain as I've been during the past year.
Oddly enough...I can't say that this has been my most suicidal year, but I have had the highest number of suicidal or self-destructive thoughts...
This has more to do with the irregularity of my medicine intake though...I think.
I had actually been thinking about beating 2007 to the punch and completely withdrawing from friends, family, society, the world, and even the universe because this streak of my life tearing itself (and everything in it) up started in 2005, but it was only mildly irritating and confusing then. It just got progressively worse in 2006. So now I'm kind of worried about how far things will spiral downwards this year. However, I am doing my best to not think about it too much...otherwise, I just might be asking for things to get worse...
(Sigh)
On to my confessions...
It's nothing big, but I do want to get some things off of my chest.
As some of you may know, I have hypothyroidism, which means that my thyroid glands are too slow, and since these glands are pretty much responsible for everything in the body, my whole body isn't able to function properly.
I also suffer from a general anxiety disorder, social anxiety, and depression.
For all of these I am taking medication, but it's only two different types of pills, so it's not bad at all.
Last May, after a decade of excruciating pain (and me not wanting to talk to anyone about it) and the doctors shrugging the pain off as "normal" menstrual pain (you can kiss my behind, by the way...pain isn't something that can or should be considered normal), I finally got sent in for a transvaginal ultrasound. A transvaginal ultrasound is when the technician or doctor inserts a phallic-shaped device into the vaginal cavity to get a picture of any potential abnormalities in the lower body. This is how they discovered that I had a cyst on my right ovary, which was about an inch in diameter. Considering the size of the average ovary, that's a huge growth. I was supposed to go back for a follow-up ultrasound a month later, but with money and personal issues smacking me in the face at an increased rate, I didn't get a chance to go back until November. In November they found out that there were now two cysts sitting on my right ovary, which kind of freaked me out. I was pretty much willing to remove them myself. So, finally, in December, I went in for my third ultrasound and found out that the cysts I have are functional cysts, meaning that they only fill up during ovulation, release the egg, and then pretty much disappear after each period. It's good that they aren't harmful necessarily (painful yes, but that doesn't matter), but I'm not too happy with the fact that they are going to keep on showing up.
Last confession I can think of: I suffer from sleep apnea. Yeah, big shock, I know...
So, I just picked up all of the equipment for my sleep therapy today, which will end up making me sound vaguely like Darth Vader.
Like I said, no big confessions here, but maybe if these problems get fixed, or at least become less of a problem, then I might be able to feel a bit better...about everything.
So yeah, I think I've written enough for today. Now if you don't mind, I'm going to throw up a little and then take some ibuprofen because I am in worlds of pain right now.
Take care everyone. Talk to you later.
Ears covered? Eyes shut?.............Good.
So, how was my 2006? Well, let me try to summarize it...
Imagine being raped in every way possible while being tied up with rusty barbed wire. That's pretty much the way 2006 went for me.
I don't think that I've ever been as exhausted, depressed, or in as much pain as I've been during the past year.
Oddly enough...I can't say that this has been my most suicidal year, but I have had the highest number of suicidal or self-destructive thoughts...
This has more to do with the irregularity of my medicine intake though...I think.
I had actually been thinking about beating 2007 to the punch and completely withdrawing from friends, family, society, the world, and even the universe because this streak of my life tearing itself (and everything in it) up started in 2005, but it was only mildly irritating and confusing then. It just got progressively worse in 2006. So now I'm kind of worried about how far things will spiral downwards this year. However, I am doing my best to not think about it too much...otherwise, I just might be asking for things to get worse...
(Sigh)
On to my confessions...
It's nothing big, but I do want to get some things off of my chest.
As some of you may know, I have hypothyroidism, which means that my thyroid glands are too slow, and since these glands are pretty much responsible for everything in the body, my whole body isn't able to function properly.
I also suffer from a general anxiety disorder, social anxiety, and depression.
For all of these I am taking medication, but it's only two different types of pills, so it's not bad at all.
Last May, after a decade of excruciating pain (and me not wanting to talk to anyone about it) and the doctors shrugging the pain off as "normal" menstrual pain (you can kiss my behind, by the way...pain isn't something that can or should be considered normal), I finally got sent in for a transvaginal ultrasound. A transvaginal ultrasound is when the technician or doctor inserts a phallic-shaped device into the vaginal cavity to get a picture of any potential abnormalities in the lower body. This is how they discovered that I had a cyst on my right ovary, which was about an inch in diameter. Considering the size of the average ovary, that's a huge growth. I was supposed to go back for a follow-up ultrasound a month later, but with money and personal issues smacking me in the face at an increased rate, I didn't get a chance to go back until November. In November they found out that there were now two cysts sitting on my right ovary, which kind of freaked me out. I was pretty much willing to remove them myself. So, finally, in December, I went in for my third ultrasound and found out that the cysts I have are functional cysts, meaning that they only fill up during ovulation, release the egg, and then pretty much disappear after each period. It's good that they aren't harmful necessarily (painful yes, but that doesn't matter), but I'm not too happy with the fact that they are going to keep on showing up.
Last confession I can think of: I suffer from sleep apnea. Yeah, big shock, I know...
So, I just picked up all of the equipment for my sleep therapy today, which will end up making me sound vaguely like Darth Vader.
Like I said, no big confessions here, but maybe if these problems get fixed, or at least become less of a problem, then I might be able to feel a bit better...about everything.
So yeah, I think I've written enough for today. Now if you don't mind, I'm going to throw up a little and then take some ibuprofen because I am in worlds of pain right now.
Take care everyone. Talk to you later.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Happy New Year's...I guess
Okay, I don't want to ruin New Year's Eve for everyone, so I'm just going to say: Have a great New Year's Eve and an amazing 2007!
Take care everyone,
Bettina
Take care everyone,
Bettina
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