This will be about me writing about anything that comes to my mind depending on my mood and the current events in my life. Of course, I will try my best to not be crude or offensive.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Not much to say
All I'm going to do is post a few music videos. Why? Well, I can't seem to get these songs out of my head, so I thought I'd share some of the fun. Honestly, at first I didn't want to like these songs, but I like more beat-driven music, and these songs are (I'll tell you in a later post why I initially didn't want to like them). Anyway, I'm sure that at least some of you will appreciate watching the women in these videos.
So, enjoy!
1) Girlicious - Like Me
2) Girlicious - Stupid Shit
Saturday, March 08, 2008
It's been too long
Sorry, Shaun baby, I still haven't typed up a review of Rabbit Rue, but I promise I will, and yes, it will still be posted this year.
I am just now starting to slowly come out of this depressive episode, so stay with me people.
What else is going on? I am currently on academic probation, which is mostly due to the fact that, after so many years of being depressed and being proud that hardly anyone knew because it hadn't effected my academic life, everything just went horribly wrong. I missed lots of classes, most professors have an attendance policy, exams are based largely on lectures, and therefore, I didn't get too many good grades.
Anyway, I'm working on tying up those loose ends now, which doesn't really help with the depression and anxiety, but it has to be done.
There are other things that need to be talked about, but I don't have enough energy to formulate those properly.
I just wanted everyone to know that I am still around, kinda.
Until next time...Curate!
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
No more school!
Why do I call him Trifthen on here anyway? I mean, he has posted comments before using his actual first name. Does it really matter? Sorry...I didn't mean to babble that much.
Well...since I've mentioned Trifthen...how many of you have read Rabbit Rue? I hope all of you have. I'm not going to type up a review on it quite yet. I'm going to save that for a time when I'm a little less tired here.
Right now, I'm just glad that I have some time to breath.
Anyway, here is another music video for everyone. I love the song, so hopefully, some of you will like it too. I don't know how good the sound quality is. I wasn't completely satisfied with it, but then again 1) I don't know if this is just my computer and 2) I like my music on the loud side.
Ja mata ne!!!
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Return to the surface
Emerging from this dark hole
Body sore and exhausted from the strain
Trouble breathing
And yet moving forward
No time to relax
The flames of passion burning more intensely than ever before
Ready to live
Ready to fight
Ready to survive
Anger, determination, love, compassion, sorrow
All flowing into one
Life and willpower returning
Unsure about the future
Will the darkness return?
No choice
Need to live
Need to fight
Need to survive
Can't stop this fire from burning
Taking slow, but steady steps
Pushing through the crowds
Never willing to give up
Never one to be messed with
Prepared to knock all the traitors back
Should the darkness still catch up
I will fight
and thrive
and even survive
Live to see a new day
And refuse to accept anything less
Friday, July 06, 2007
What's Your Sign?
Most people know about the basic zodiac (Aries-Pisces). Quite a few know about the Chinese zodiac, which isn't set up on a monthly, but on a yearly, basis. Of course, there are other types of zodiac systems, one of them being the Egyptian zodiac. Unfortunately, I haven't found much information on Egyptian astrology (I might just be looking in all the wrong places). However, I recently found a sight that seems to work fine...for now.
If you're interested in Egyptian astrology set up in the format of, I guess, the basic western zodiac, then go to Tour Egypt's "Pharaoh's Signs of the Zodiac" section. However, unlike the basic zodiac, which starts with Aries (around the last week of March), this is listed as starting with Thoth (at the end of August). I'm not a big fan of the way it is set up, but it's still interesting to look through.
According to this, I was born in the sign of the Phoenix. My strengths are supposedly being optimistic (yeah right), flexible (it depends), and promoting optimism in others (okay, I actually do like to do this).
My weaknesses are being solitary (I'm sorry, I don't think that this is a legitimate weakness), stubborn (okay, if you're too stubborn or constantly being stubborn, I can see this as a weakness), dreamy (okay, too much daydreaming can be bad...), and unrealistic (I don't know...I'm actually more realistic than some people might think about me...). Then this site also has potential jobs listed. Mine are risky jobs, self-employment, and most probably great engineers. Umm, I'm not one for anything dealing with high risk, and I'm not really interested in engineering. So, that leaves me with self-employment... I do like being my own boss, but self-employment can be quite risky depending on the actual work.
Well, that was fun. Now on to the next website.
Someone set up this website that lists each of the Egyptian signs closer to what they are actually meant to be. However, there are a number of typos and parts of the text don't make much sense, which could be the result of a direct translation...or a poor translation.
This is why I am going to include a third website. soFeminine.co.uk might be geared more towards women, but looking at my sign at least, I don't see anything that would be exclusive to women. So, it should be mostly the same for men as well.
Once you've selected the day and month on which you were born, you will directed to your Egyptian sign. Here I am listed as having been born under the sign of Anubis, which I've read more often than not (Tour Egypt is actually the only place where I've read anything different). As with all signs, you get a brief history lesson, and then a paragraph on the character associated with the god or figure (most or all of the signs are based on the Egyptian gods, I think).
Being born under the sign of Anubis (God of the dead and afterlife), I am a bit of a paradox, like to be alone, in the shade, and anonymous. I am idealist, highly sensitive, honest, and loyal. I have a fatalistic side. I am drawn to the fields of human resources, medicine and teaching. Old wounds never really heal...the slightest upset can make me indecisive...I am very careful when choosing a partner...and so on.
So far, soFeminine.co.uk is the best site I've found for Egyptian astrology, but I'm still looking. Hopefully, I'll find a book or website or something that is more extensive in this area.
Have fun looking up your Egyptian sign and I'll talk to everyone later.
Take care!
The things I find...
As much as I would like to type up more, my mind has been dreadfully blank all of today. So, sorry about that people.
Anyway, I need to take Benadryl, so I will leave you some videos to watch and hopefully enjoy.
Take care mina san!
Monday, June 25, 2007
Decisions
Okay, I will agree with Shaun...Porky Pig raping Elmer Fudd would be hilarious...visually at least. However, since I'm not just a visual person, I think it would be funnier listening to Elmer Fudd raping Porky Pig...
Now, enough with talk about rape...for now. This post is not about rape. Or sex. Or anything like that.
This post is about trends I've been noticing. 2007 is the year of people getting engaged/married and people writing books. I know of three couples who are getting married this year (well, one of these couples is already legally married) and, from what I've read, of at least two people who are writing books. Of course, those two people are excluded from the people I know who will be participating in NaNoWriMo this November.
Since I am feeling kind of left out from all the fun and I am in the mood to step onto the beaten path, for once, I figure I should do at least one of the two: Get engaged or write a book (or at least start writing a book). Chances of me getting engaged this year are nil, and to be completely honest, I am more interested in writing a book anyway. Sooo, I think I'm going to do some major brainstorming while I still have the energy and time, and then slowly but surely get started on my first book. Who knows...I just might write a book on getting married... I'm kidding.
Of course, there's always a chance that I won't be doing anything special this year...other than crocheting massive afghans...
Okay, that's all from me. I'm off to crochet some more, maybe send some of my dear friends messages, do some more reading, watch DVDs, and run some errands.
I also just wanted to apologize to everyone I've been neglecting. My mind isn't in the best place right now (well, it hasn't been for the past 13 years, truth be told)...actually, it would be more accurate to say that not even I'm sure where my mind is...
Anyway, I will do my best to keep in touch with everyone more.
Take care mina san!
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Weird...
Okay, this sequence of dreams has been the most light-hearted I've ever encountered. It was also filled with the most random images... I expect dreams to be highly random...but, uhh, not this random!!!
Something else: When I woke up this morning, it felt like someone had thrown a piano on me. My left wrist was in pain...my eyes were completely sore (and I don't mean the regular "Oh gosh, I just woke up, and the light is hurting my eyes"-soreness)...my right shoulder hurt...everything hurt.
However, I think the thing that confuses me most is...why do I feel like I spent all night kissing women? Hmmmm...
Aaahhh...who knows... I need to get to bed. Maybe my dreams will be less random this time around...and maybe I won't wake up feeling like I just spent eight hours making out with people. Wait...I actually wouldn't mind that too much... *hehe*
Oyasumi nasai minasan!
Monday, June 11, 2007
Well, what a surprise...
Your Score: Temperance
You scored 52 change, 27 wellbeing, 80 wisdom, and 51 truth
The angel in the picture above is perfectly balancing and combining the two qualities of male and female, or positive and negative. The angel stands with one foot on the earth and one within the water at foot. This is also a perfect balance of the conscious and the subconscious mind. The red wings are symbolic of the fiery desires of the spirit to learn on a higher level of consciousness and the mountains in the background represent wisdom. The triangle is the higher knowledge that is acquired through introspection as the will to learn and understand can cause within us great doubt, but by following truth, we can select a path that leads us to the wisdom we so desire.
some extra words:
being temperate
finding the middle ground
showing moderation
avoiding excess
mitigating a harsh position
looking for the golden mean
reaching a compromise
offsetting an extreme
maintaining balance
experiencing harmony
achieving equilibrium
bringing together opposites
recognizing all sides
fostering cooperation
feeling centered and secure
experiencing health
renewing energy and vigor
healing
enjoying well-being
recovering
flourishing
combining forces
gathering together what is needed
joining with others
consolidating
finding the right mix
creating synthesis
getting it all together
Link: The What tarot card resembles you Test written by KamikazeParrot on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test |
Saturday, June 09, 2007
News
1) Paris Hilton has been sent back to jail. For those of you who have better things to do with your lives, here is a summary of the backstory to this article: After having been caught driving under the influence several times, having her license suspended, and then being caught driving under the influence without her license, a judge finally decided to send Paris Hilton to prison for 45 days. I thought that this was slightly less than fair, but it was something. Anyway, Paris Hilton left to start her sentence early...right after attending this year's MTV Movie Awards. Okay, at least she was being a good girl about it. Everything was going well, the prison guards were reporting that she was courteous and polite (of course, she was), and then...on the third day of her sentence, she was released from prison...due to medical reasons (supposedly a nervous breakdown).
Now onto the actual article: Judge Sauer (which I, as part-German, think is a hilarious and fitting name for a judge) decided after a day of "freedom" for Paris Hilton (she was to remain in her villa for the remainder of her sentence) that she would be returning to prison. Paris Hilton's reaction to this: crying and calling out to her mother.
There were reports of Paris Hilton complaining that she was cold and hungry in her prison cell. Well, you do have to think about the other people sitting in prison. I mean, you have people with diabetes, AIDS, and other illnesses or psychological disorders that make prison life a literal hell. I think that being hungry and cold would be the least of my problems... Then, you have people like Al Sharpton crying about racial discrimination. I don't know how true that is, but I am more likely to believe that it was discrimination based on wealth and social status. (Contrary to popular belief, wealth doesn't necessarily guarantee a higher social standing and vice versa.) There were also enraged district attorneys, who mentioned that we couldn't just simply set up a multi-layered prison system based on someone's wealth and/or social status. Surprisingly enough, the police are on Paris Hilton's side. Sheriff Baca mentioned that Paris Hilton has some serious problems that were getting worse in prison. (Umm, yeah, of course she has some serious problems. This was new? And of course they were getting worse in prison. Don't the problems of pretty much everyone else get worse in prison?) Another statement was that Paris Hilton had already spent the "average" time in prison for her "traffic sins" (Verkehrssuenden) and that other "traffic sinners" usually only have to sit out a tenth of their sentence. (And this is reason enough to let her go early?)
I hate to say this, but Paris Hilton needs to learn a lesson and get her head out of her butt. She's in her mid-twenties already, for crying out loud. She behaves the way she does and is then surprised that people want to see her dead. I don't think that she should die, but she should at least squirm and suffer a little. If she were to die from one anxiety attack...then she obviously hasn't suffered from enough of them. Honestly, she doesn't seem to care about the people around her. I mean, she was caught quite a few times driving under the influence, even though she could have easily called for a taxi or a limo to pick her up and drive her home. How many lives did she risk each of those times? Has she ever thought about that one?
So, here is my personal message to Paris Hilton (not that she'll receive it, but it will make me feel better): Grow up, baby girl!!! I'm only 21 and I have more common sense and compassion in my right little finger than you have and could ever have in your whole body! You're an arrogant, spoiled, two-faced baby, who hasn't been told to shut up enough in her life. Do yourself a favor: travel around the world incognito (if that is at all possible), go to developing countries, rely on yourself and the kindness of others...and not on your and/or the Hilton money, abstain from parties and alcohol and the social scene in general, and then maybe you will be ready to show yourself in public again.
2) Prince Harry is thinking about leaving the military. Why this? Because in addition to not letting him go to Iraq, he also isn't allowed to serve in Afghanistan. Why this? Because not only have so many soldiers died already, not only is it a highly dangerous area for the average soldier to be in, but it is especially dangerous for a member of one of the most widely-recognized royal families to be in.
According to several reports, Prince Harry is fully aware of this, but being denied both assignments kind of signaled an early death to his young military career (in addition to these denials being a blow to his blue-blooded ego). So, he is now supposedly thinking about "retiring" early from the military. Instead he wants to concentrate on humanitarian work, such as the organization Sentabale in the South African kingdom Lesotho, which helps AIDS-orphans and was established by Prince Harry as a memorial to his mother.
My thoughts: Go for the humanitarian work. Your mother will be proud of you and you'll most likely help more people with that than if you were to stay in the military and drive yourself crazy for lack of assignments. I also doubt that anyone will think less of you, should you choose to leave the military for humanitarian work.
Seriously, can you blame the boy? First off, it's pretty damn certain that he will never be crowned king (and it seems like he's just fine with that). And second of all, he's denied assignments in areas where it seems like they could use more men. So yeah, if I were in his position, I would feel pretty damn useless. As long as he doesn't leave the military to party and be completely selfish, I think he should go ahead with it.
3) Oh Diana! How many lovers did you have? Well, from the sounds of it...at least three. According to the article on GMX, Diana's first lover was the royal bodyguard Barry Mannakee, who died in 1987, when his motorcycle crashed into a car. Even though this collision was reported as an accident, Diana believed it wasn't. She believed that Barry Mannakee had to die because he knew too much about the miserable state of her marriage to Prince Charles. The other two lovers mentioned were her riding teacher James Hewitt (who is also supposedly the father of Prince Harry) and Dodi Al-Fayed (who was also her last lover and died in the same collision that killed Princess Diana). This article came up mainly because the author Tina Brown released excerpts from her soon-to-be-released book "The Diana Chronicles", which will supposedly be available in Germany on June 12th, but already seems to be available here. Of course, this book will most likely be one among many. I mean, it has almost been a decade since that unfortunate collision in Paris. I won't say that I condone Diana's affairs, but she did belong to the more compassionate portion of the world's population.
1997 was a tragic year in that aspect: We lost both Princess Diana and Mother Theresa. Don't these deaths always happen in groups of three? Where's the third one? Okay, sorry, I'm veering off topic.
Anyway, I don't know how good this book is...nor do I know how much of it is true. It's pretty certain that Princess Diana had affairs with both James Hewitt and Dodi Al-Fayed, but I don't know how much longer this list of lovers is.
Who knows...I might even buy the book, read it, and then write a review on it.
Well, that's all I have to say...at least until I find something new to write about.
Take care people!
Friday, June 08, 2007
Raving to keep sane
I also need to have my left jaw joint looked at since I feel like shooting myself a lot of times because of the level of pain. Then, of course, I need to ask a gynecologist about my ovaries and uterus because I can't believe that the amount of pain that I've been in for about a decade can be anything close to normal.
What else? I am, as always, overly concerned with humanity, the world, and the universe. Is there anything I can do about it? Well, it's like I told my mother recently, I could do something about it, but then my hands would smart from the amount of people I'd be smacking around. Okay, Spass beiseite, I know that there's something I should be able to do, even if it is just expressing these worries of mine for the time being. However, that is only a short-term solution. Bitching has never gotten us anywhere useful. So, I guess it's on to constructive complaining. Sorry, I probably shouldn't be typing while I'm this tired...
Anyway, eventually, hopefully in the near future, I will think of something useful and compassionate to do for everyone.
Okay, I'm starting to draw blanks, so I guess I'll type a longer post later.
As for me raving to keep sane (or as sane as I can be), this video is of one of the many songs that I've been dancing and listening to. It's from Scooter's album Stadium Techno (if I'm not mistaken) and it's called Maria (I like it loud). It also has a guest appearance from Ralf Moeller, who has played in movies and series, such as Conan The Adventurer (1997-1998), Gladiator (2000), Die Nibelungen (Ring of the Nibelungs) (2004), Beerfest (2006), Pathfinder and Seed (2007), and has finished work on Postal (2007). Even though he is funny in the video, I still shudder slightly at the thought of Ralf in this video and am trying to forget about it.
By the way, before you watch the video, here are a few more things I'd like to say:
1) Don't forget to read Trifthen's webfiction. He's already on the 10th chapter, I believe. So far, there are updates every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.
2) Personal message to Adrienne: I love you too! *mwah*
Monday, May 14, 2007
Watashi ga taizen da to omoimasu.
Anyway, I've slept on it and decided that it would be completely against my usual personality to curse him out. It's hard. Really hard, but I know what types of people my friends are (or at the very least, I have a much better clue than he does) and if I let him get to me, it will just go to show that he is of some significance in my life. If I've learned anything in the past 21 years, it's that ignoring someone/something is more damaging than any physical or verbal attacks that I could hand out.
I think that's all I have to say for now. And yes, I actually do feel quite calm/self-possessed.
Take care mina san!
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Es ist wieder Zeit fuer einen deutschen Eintrag
Heute ist Muttertag, also "Alles Gute!" an alle Muetter, Grossmuetter, und an die Leute, die sich liebend um andere kuemmern.
Was geht bei mir heute ab? Nichts...ueberhaupt nichts! Ich bin gestern ins Kino gegangen und hab "Hot Fuzz" angeguckt...alleine!...und dann bin ich etwas spaeter ins Bett.
Unglaublicherweise bin ich nach nur drei Stunden oder so aufgewacht! Ich hab schon gedacht, dass es mittags ist, aber nein...es ist erst 8 Uhr morgens gewesen.
Schon seltsam, oder?
Hmmm...ich bin gerade dabei drei Buecher zu lesen und ich schaue mir "The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency" und "Excel Saga" an. Also, sehr viel geht bei mir momentan nicht vor...
Na ja, hoffentlich melde ich mich bald wieder!
Passt gut auf euch auf!
Melancholy reigns supreme
So, here is another video: Girls Aloud's "Life got Cold" off of their first album Sound of the Underground.
Some things are too good to be true
For now, all I can do is take some allergy medication and do my best to find out what I am allergic to. I usually don't like taking allergy medication because it causes practically all of my muscles to relax, which is bad for driving, cleaning, and...gymnastics, among many other activities. Oh well...shikata ga nai ne.
Anyway, I need to shower, take more allergy medication, and think about whether or not I want to go to the movies (and if so, what movie I would like to see).
Hopefully, this will get better soon.
Take care mina san.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
I'm done! Yatta! Yatta!
This semester, like the last, was a disaster. Unlike last semester, it didn't take such a high toll on my already cracked emotional/mental/physical states, which I am quite grateful for. Who knows...maybe by the time I graduate, everything will be the way it was...umm...before 2006, I suppose?
Ah well, enough of my whiny ass. I have a bladder to empty and body to feed. Maybe I can write about something more positive in my next post.
Take care mina san!
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Babbling Benedetta
I met quite a few interesting people this semester, which doesn't happen a lot. Of course, being in a Japanese class with only about 12 students kind of forces you to get to know everyone else. So, now I'm quite sad thinking about all of the laughs and conversations we shared in and out of class. But who knows, we might be able to stay in touch and see each other again in other classes.
Yesterday I took my Japanese final, so now I have three more to go. I know I won't get 100% on the final, but I think that I did quite well.
What else has been going on? Well, the remnants of a cold that just don't seem to want to go away, a right knee that has been bugging me (which is odd since that's supposed to be my good knee), a sudden increase in dizzy spells again (which might be caused by the combination of a cold and anti-depressants), overwhelming nausea (that is probably also caused by anti-depressants and/or thyroid medication), and experiencing the oh-so-familiar pain that accompanies my ovulation (only this time, it seems I am dealing with two eggs instead of one, since both ovaries are causing me pain).
I know that things could be far worse, so I'm glad to have been given this relatively minor burden.
Other news: I was planning on going to Anime Central this year, but I guess it just wasn't meant to be...*sob, sob* I'll be fine as soon as the convention's over...and I guess I'm already over the fact that I'm not going...at least I'm not feeling anything at the moment. Sure, it would have been great, but oh well.
Next topic... My dad and my younger sister had their birthdays this week...and my younger brother's will this upcoming week, so yay...I guess. Three Taureans in one family...that's at least two Taureans too many. At least.
Umm...well, I can't really think of anything else to babble on about. Not now, at least.
So, have a nice evening mina san, don't fall on your faces, but if you must...do it with flair.
Video clips galore
Okay, don't watch this if you don't like Japanese TV or homosexuals (well, very flaming homosexuals) or butts or faces on butts or...oh, who cares? Just watch it and damn me later.
I just watched this one for the first time a few minutes ago and at least my boyfriend and I thought it was hilarious. It's nothing against Lindsay Lohan, but it's still funny.
This clip is in German and sadly enough, without English subtitles. It is from a German comedy show called Die Wochenshow and it's kind of like Saturday Night Live or Mad TV. This clip is from one of my favorite skits Sex TV with Brisko Schneider. My mother should really appreciate it. If you want to know what they're talking about in this clip, just send me a message and I'll be more than happy to provide explanations. Other than that, it doesn't really matter if you understand it or not, it's still funny to watch and listen to the voices.
Again, a clip from Die Wochenshow, but this time from another one of my favorite skits Der Erklaerbaer.
I know, another German clip. For this one, you really don't need to get what is being said. It's from another comedy show, Bullyparade, and the clip is called Der kleine Hitler (Little/small Hitler...yes, that Hitler). It's a hilarious clip.
This is from Bully's Partnerboerse, also from Bullyparade. Here the people get to say what kind of a partner they are looking for (kind of like classified ads, but on TV), but that often doesn't go the way it's supposed to...
Another clip from Bullyparade. This time it's Robin Hood showing off his gangsta rapper style. And guess what...it's in English! (Yay!)
Okay, I'm done. Too many video clips for one post. I'll type another one in a few hours. I need sleep people, so good night.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
British Invasion
So, have fun with it, dance, sing, jump...pretty much whatever floats your boat.
Oh, and...take care people.
Monday, April 09, 2007
Shameless Plugs and 100th Post (yay!)
The second site was set up by one of my closest and dearest friends. Again, check the Links section, click on Trifthen's Webfiction (it's listed directly underneath the link listed as Trifthen), and read his entries. He has been superbusy writing chapter outlines and typing up these entries. Yet again, show him your love by reading these entries and sending him comments on his main site. So far, I like what I've been reading and no, this is not me "buttering him up".
As you can see in the title, this is also my 100th post, which really isn't that impressive, considering how long I've had this blog. I'm still happy about it though.
Well, I guess I'm done for today. I'll try and update soon. As soon as I possibly can, at least.
Take care mina san!