If you were to ask my mother, she would tell you that one of the things that I have managed to keep from my childhood is my vivid imagination. I mean, we're talking about someone who was even sent to therapy because she told her parents that her Barbies went out shopping every time the lights were turned off!!
So, how do I make the connection between the previous sentences and this post's title? Well, recently I've experienced an increase in bad dreams, at least from what I can remember. I am also having this general feeling of impending doom (lots of underlying negative currents)... Oh, and let's not forget that I thought I was driving through Silent Hill last night due to some very dense fog that had managed to find its way into Iowa City. Even though I felt tempted to take pictures, I didn't get around to it...sorry. I was almost expecting to find a girl standing in the middle of the road...
Anyway...here are my theories (hypotheses, actually) as to what this all could mean or what the sources to this could be:
1) I am still processing the fact that three tornadoes touched down in Iowa City, which would explain why I've had two dreams with tornadoes. One of them featured a huge tornado (and a pregnant Angelina Jolie) and the other had tornadoes everywhere...and I mean everywhere (granted, one of them turned out to be three drag queens standing on each other, but I don't know how to explain that one...).
2) It's just the usual Bettina panic attack: Paranoia caused by an inborn anxiety disorder + Overly vivid imagination = CODE BLUE! CODE BLUE!
3) Maybe I've been letting my family's situation get to me more than I would have liked...
4) Or, or...now stay with me on this one: It could be a sign of the apocalypse...psssh, psssh, not too loud. We don't want the men in the white jackets to find out about this theory quite yet.
5) Of course, it could always be a combination of the hypotheses 1-3. Not too sure if I should include 4 in that one...
Well, I am still none the wiser, even though my middle name does grant me lots of wisdom already, so let's just hope it's not the apocalypse...hihi.
Okay, I'll just retreat for now...with my aluminum hat...underneath a table...and I will (hopefully) write another post soon. ; )
So, take care and...beware of the signs...
2 comments:
Actually, you're not alone, except it's been longer for me. For about the last year or so, I've been having the same inexplicable feeling of impending calamity.
Maybe it really is number four after all. ;)
It's easy to feel like something bad will happen in a world in which bad things sometimes do happen. War for instance. But the dreams might be something you can do something about. I think you should tell your dr. about it in case there's a link to the meds. And there are also ways to introduce certain thoughts before bed to minimize the possibility of bad dreams
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